I took L2 to the doctor today expecting to leave with another round of antibiotics and a kid already well on her way to recovery --last night she went to bed with a normal temperature for the first time in a week -without ibuprofen!! and her temp has not gone above 100.6 today.
But instead I was told we will need to do an ultrasound, possibly a CT scan, blood work, etc. because her spleen is enlarged (which is "normal" when mono develops from the Epstein-Barr virus that we are all too familiar with already). I spoke with Loren a couple of times during the visit and his main question was (and continues to be) if she is getting better, why can't we just give her a few more days to get better?
Her doctor was firm, no, adamant, about her having these tests. Her words were "medically I cannot at all recommend a 'wait and see' approach". I should add here that we just started taking L2 to her, because she is a friend and someone we trust completely. I'm not sure how this all would be developing if we were going to our old doctor. So instead of a few pills and a couple of days of having her read in bed, we are looking at a trip or two to the children's hospital infectious diseases wing for a battery of expensive space age tests.
Oh yeah, did I mention we don't have medical insurance?
I thank God that I have stayed remarkably calm, not just calm-looking in front of the 9 year old, but truly filled with the peace of Christ that surpasses all understanding Philippians 4:7.
I have thought about her health, possible complications, her self-image, starting to identify with the role of the sick kid. I have thought about money and debt, and time devoted to caring for her instead of earning CAT scan money. But, thank the Lord, I have not worried about it.
I have also thought about how silly it seems now to be thinking about fasting, and how hard it will be, and how good I'll look when I'm done. Downright moronic.
Not that I'm changing my mind about doing this, but I am definitely examining what it means and how I must focus on it to keep it in the right perspective.
I have to go to sleep. I have stayed calm but that calm seems to be taking all my energy.
Good night, all is well with the world.